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* well , Im searching for words I geuss I can say . . Well * then again I cant say I didnt see it coming* . . - From the first time we broke up . . . Everything has been the same .. we'd get back together, everything would be wonderful, somthing would happen, we would break up and then cycle would repeat. . . * I would be doing GREAT . . and actually forgetting I needed him . . and then he calles. . - It never fails .. * I mean, I LOVE to get a voice mail, and it being from him. . But then again .. It kills me .. and beats me to death, because I have everyone telling me that he's using me, or he's not really wanting to be with me . . and I start to believe that .. and everything begins to be okay again, and then he calles and says the same shit .. * And OF COURSE I fall for it everytime.. Every single time .. Its not something that i do on purpose, I cant help it . . * WHy do guys have to do this!? - Does anyone have a question to that? -
God and everyone knows that I am crazy over that boi!! and I would be willing to take him back in a heartbeat. . * BUT - THis past time he said He wanted to be friends .. . and Well everyone . that killed my damn soul!! It was hard, but I accepted the fact that he was my friend and FRIEND only . . and all I had to remember was the memories. . But then he starts talkin like he wants more, and my dumbass falls for it once more.. and I Only end up getting hurt. . . * I miss him with every beat in my heart, and I want nothing more than to be with him and be happy.. and Who knows how much time that will take, but no matter what anyone says I will be waiting until the day it does happen* . . and In my heart, I know it will! . .
* I was just in the mood, because I just now got his voice mail, and well it got me to thinking. .*
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[Tuesday
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> Welll * I was just in the mood to update since I have nothing else to do on this wonderful TEusday Night!! Haha!
* Nothing MAJOR* has went on! . . Same ole Same ole* . . I gotta phone call from ONce again Elliot! - .. And so we started hanging out again* BUT as friends only this time* . . Too much drama comes along with Dating, and I dont think EITHER of us want that again! .. So . But we dont hang out as much as we used to! . . He's just like one of my best friends* which I think is for the best *. . Because ELliot and I have tryed dating how many timeS? Gah I cant even count* and God Knows how much I want it to work out ,but I think we've finally realized that Friends is better* and if anything shall happen, it wil happen on its owN* . . And im not thinkin about it as much now! - . .SO That is def. good!! =)
* Ummm Lets see here * . . Softball is goin purdy good I geuss! . Other than the running its awesome* . . WE had our first game FridAy* against CAstlewood!! I got to see Heather!! Aeww! . . Anywayz, we lost 9-0* but . . we made alotta careless errors!! And we can do much better!! . . But * Hopefully all of our other games will go better!! . . Im loving my team mates* . . well * most of them anywayz! haha . . Im getting along with some people I didnt think I would be! but its good! and its good because we have to play together* so . . ITs good we have came to get along a lil now* . . But all in all* Its goin great*
* Friends- well they are even better than before*. . Well* WE are not goin into a Subject. .because mainly everyone knows* - . . But I gained a friend in that place!* So that is good* . . IT really doesnt bother me, becuase ahh . . You cant be friends with someone if you dont wanna be friends with them* Enough said about that!*
* My Weekend was pretty damn awesome!! . .
> Friday * I had the game of course*, and well that wasnt very good. . . But then I came home at around 6 and called elliot back and he came over* and Well dad had a good talk with the both of us!! haha, so we went out and just drove around and went and got sLushies!! haha, and talked about ALOT of stuff! . . And well just the typical night for me and Elliot* . . haha* then he brought me home around 10:30 and stayed for about 30 mins* and then left* and then Dad lisa and I attempted to watch "walk the LIne" but I fell asleep, and dad said it quit workin! so haha!! >.
> Saturday * I woke up around 9:30- and done NOTHING* . . But lay around* then papaw came got me , and I went to Long Johns* whoo hoo* . . . Then I came home, and got ready for the Padgent . . And so * I got up there at around 4:30* and I worked backstage along with Misty!. . We had a blast!! . .So After the padgent, I left with Misty and we took MEgan up to Wal-mart to meet Theresa and them, so after that , we left* . . . And Well* LEts just say * we had plans, that didnt work out* . . But Actually we were kinda glad* Because We ended up having like the best night ever!! . . * Dad Lisa Squirrel me and Misty all hung out at the house, played cards, and all that good stuff! haha . . and then CHristian stopped by at like 1 or 2? cant remember, and he only stayed for a lil while. . . And then Later on Flow came by for a minute or twO* so Dad took him home at around 4* And We all went to bed! Because it was one hell of a night!! haha* Misty(Gray, we gotta go bail my friends outta jail), I dont like pepsi, MISTY here's your pepsi!!, Lisa(man she was shitfaced!!), Rook, THe video, "can we go to the Bowling Alley?!", I HIT 90!! Lmao! We had a blast!! -
> Sunday * WE woke up around 10? or something and went and got everyone breakfast!. . So we got back and then ate, and got ready . . And we all decided to go Golfing!! . . SO Lisa Dad Squirrel Me Misty and Jimmy Hall . . all went up to the Golf Course, and Misty played with Jimmy DAd and Lisa and Then me and Squirrel, and ME Lisa and MIsty SUCKED IT UP! but we are learning* and the Golf Course is like a damn magnet for the hottest damn guys! and we looked like Shit!! haha! >. But we had SOO much fun!! . . Damit, you spilt my beer., Im not ridin with her anymore!, THey think your cute, Loosing your cell!!, Loosing your ear ring, make sure you still got your bloomers!!, The golF Carts!, our FORM!, haha Ramming dad with the Cart knockin his coffee cup out!! lmao! We had so much fuN!! . .
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Yesterday* was the first day of spring* and well we got out of school at 2 because it came a damn Blizzard! . . haha! - . . So we had practice at 3- so I got sheilah to come get me from School! . . and then went to her house* ate, and then MIsty came and got me at around 3!! haha, so we had to go to my house to change, and then to practice, we bought hit a cop . . gah! If I wouldnt have seen it, we would've just ran right smack dab over him! haha .. but Practice was awesome* because is all we had to do was hit and I had to catch Noelle, and she only threw 175- which isnt that bad! .. So I went back to Sheilahs and called mom, and asked if I could just stay down at dads* so . .she let me. . . SO I asked Amber if she wanted to come over and so she came up SHeilahs and we ate a bite or two* and then Papaw came got us and took us to dads! . . SO dad wants to order a pizza and Amber wants to see "walk the LinE" so .. we order A pizza from Pizza hut and Rent walk the Line and Jarhead. . Well we ate and everything, and watched the movieS* . .and Walk the line is AWESOME* . . Love it LOve it Love it* .. Jarhead was really good at the beginning, but then it just started SUCKING!. . so I fell asleep right before it was over* . .
* Today. . School / / Practice / / Came home * .. Same ole Same ole* - haha* -
.. * But I geus Im goin to get off here I think thats a pretty good Update* -
OHHHHH - My birthday is in 8 days!!!! :))) I cant wait* the Big 1-6teen*
* Love you Guys . .
comments!!*
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* welllllll . .. This update is goin to be about my Friday Nite ,seeing as in how it was the shit!! :)
Wellll* .. School went how school usually goes, I had to stay after school until about 5* and then I had practice which Sucked ass! Because we had to run like freakin crazy! so , that sucked! and then after practice mom decided to let me stay with dad, so I went to dads and Amber and Steph came by, and I went with them, Well! This is where the shit starts!!! - . . WE decided to go up to Norton! so we get up there and we go to Walmart and omylord! there was sooo many hot guys up there it wasnt even funny! so, we flirted OF coursE! and gave like 80 guys my cell number thru the car! lmao! .. . so we drove around the parking lot for like an hour! and Then- Out of all people* Dumbass and Dumbass 2 just had to drive around* so THEy HADDD to start shit* so . .. . They are scared of me, because they wouldnt meet me over there to settle this whole big deal* so Monday, Im laughing in there damn face because it is HilARIOUS!!! - - - IT so much fun thO! It first pissed me off but then, It was like IT put me in a good mood! - .. and So we rode around adn all that good crap, then went and met Matt, and ME and Amber got with Matt and on the way home we saw Elliot, so My dumbass has the bright idea to call him , so I did and some chick answers the phone! . . .haha.. IT upset me , but not for long! because personally I deserve better than that WAYYYYY better if he's goin to be a pricK! . . (steak PU***) lmao! that is freakin hilarious! . .and then they bring me home and I get here , then Christian comes down here so we go up to his house and hang out! and then I finally came home =) It was soo much fun!* - :)
But other than that nothing at all has went on * boring boring boring hahaha*
Cumm Guzzling Gutter SLut!! lmao!! - . . . Steph losing her shoe, CHASE HIM!, There he is you guys, AHH he aint worth it! lmao, GET THE FRICK OUT OF THE WAY JASONNNN, lmao! Tap Dance on her FACE!, 219-2987 baby!!! (how many times did I say that guys!? lmao) .. Hey baby!!!!, THe burgundy Ford! - the Blue Mustang(idiots). . .. O lordy! there was so many memories it aint even funny! - . .This was one HELL of a nite =) .. but * im goin to get off here *
Love you GUys :)
COMMMENTS!!!!!!
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* well you guys, i was typing thiS REALLY LONG LONG LONG update.. and I was completley finished with it .. and I pushed the damn escape button and it erased every damn bit of it .. so I have to start over!!!!!!!!!!!
* Well * this Update needs to start out with AmBER * because HER and CAsey are dating!*!*! aewww Im so happy for her! - I LOVE YOU BOOGER*
* Amber has been with me this whole weekend* and we have had a blast! . . .
Saturday //last night*\\ - Amber came over, and so i fixed some no bake cookies! - they werent that good- . but I tried! - .. So * we get on ICQ and Amber decides to Message Casey (wasnt that a good idea?!) .. and so they start talking* - .. and .. they talk for ever "Marvin Gay, Lets get it on!!" .. lmao! - . . we had a blast! - so then Ogre and Tra decided to walk over.. so * they got there at about 12:30- and they brought along the bottle! (nuff said) lmao..*But Tra and I had a very heartfelt talk!- I swear im crazy over that boi!* so Im willing to help him thru anything! but - . . we had a blast! - .. A mexicans heart amber is FRA-GILE!, Tra stripping, NIPPLE FUCCKK!!, The gum on my damn light!, ogre, go back to sleep!!lmao, I make home videos!!, with Tra!lmao! , Tra and his singing, Thats casey I swear!!!, Fuc* your mother James!, This looks bad, Amber it looks bad dont it!, HES ENGAGED TO ANOTHER GIRL!, So he still thinks about you!, they were doin there thing, and he screams AMBER, and he said im sorry baby and they keep doing it! lmao that * was HIlarious!!_ . . Tra and that damn gum!- . I swear. I dont even think they remember coming over ! lmao .. Did you guys make it home ? "No, Ogre's in the yard!".. nO wait . . he made it to the porch! - lmfao* - . . So we had a blast* They left around 2:30 a.M* - . .and Casey called.. so we all talked forever! .. Dont call me black you nigger! who did I say that to you guys!? haha! I cant remember! - . who knows! - . . But then we talked to him forever.. and then finally went to bed!- . .at about 4?! -
Today! //* Amber and I woke up around 10:16 - because Christian texted me ... so we got up .. and decided to go to Sheilahs, so we went up ther eand got on the computer.. and then Casey called.. and then tra called.. so we talked to them for awhile .. Then I got off with Tra because him and Ogre were going outside to build a snowman and takle it!? =/ weird! *so I get in the shower, and then dad comes and gets us .. and we take Amber home. . and soemone cALles that REALLY shouldnt have called!- I just told him FLATT out .. .just stop messing with my feelings.. because* - its just not cool! - so I think he got the picture?! I dont know . - BUt * . . so * I went to dads.. and then Kevin came got me.. * so I came home* and My momma bought be a dozen roses for Valentines day! - * I dont have a valentine :( so .. * But it made me cry! -- .. I swear .. Im just emotional today! . .- and so * I helped mom make some candles* (which turned out great) . .and then cleaned the room* and then got on here.. and * I kept telling Amber to tell Casey how she felt, and she finally did .. and WAT DO YOU KNOW* now they are dating! aeww its just so sweet* and wen she told me what he said. . damit I cryed!!! . .Im jsut one big ball of emotions! . . * haha*
BUt * I geuss that is enougH* considering .. my damn fingers are about to fall ofF! =)
I love you guys!
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* WELL SERIous time for another update! because alot has changed. . . . * Elliot and I broke up on the 3rd* because I walked in the huddle house and caught him there with Whitney Glover! aint that wonderfuL ? haha, but he said he was only there for Josh's birthday, but yet he ignored my phone call?! - See, Christian and liv and Vik was there, and they called me, and all that stuff! so . . yeah . we are better off this way, you never know we might get back together, who knows!? - Its hard to tell . .. But everything is okay, we are not arguing and we are friends! so that is good! -
Amber and David broke up , which I think is for the best! because she deserves so much better than that!! - And believe me she is LIVIN up the single life! Go Booger!! =) But IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOO glad that she is free of that idiot! Because she is my bestest friend, and it killed me to see her hurt like that* =) I Love you Amber NIkole! =) ) )
* well, as for me and guys, things just aint lookin to good * . as always* lol! I jus think IM meant to be a nun? maybe who knows. . But I really cared for Tra, and he told me he didnt want to be in a relationship so, you cant make the boi do something he dont want to do. . . so maybe he will come around, as for right now, hes stuck! ! lol . . .
* My friends and I are great i geuss you could say. . . THey are just the greatest friends ever!!! =) Amber NIkole, Kirsten Elaine, Liv Shae,steph NikOLe, Vik Lee, CHristian Nathaniel, Brittany Marie* all you guys are the best!!! =)
School.. . sucks . . and i dont want to even BEGIN into that subject! lol
Amber and I went to the game last night! lol "You took us across the damn border!" lmao .. that was so much fun* - . She was just everywhere talking to everyone! it was just great, and something she really needed! * So then I got home and went to bed! =)
* well I geuss that is a good enough update!*
Love you guys! =)
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- MY LIfe is soo wonderFUl right Now! =) and IM the happiest that I think I have ever been! <3 All thanks to You! ;)
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You are SO amazing!* Im so glad That we are together!! <3
. . Love you Guys! =)
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[Sunday
January 1st, 2006 at 11:34am] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
Last Thursday I helped ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) gummybear_ hide a body (-173 points). In January I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points). Last Saturday I donated bone marrow to hem_90 in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Last Monday I gave _sierra a Dutch Oven (-10 points). In March I broke eriica_08's X-Box (-12 points).
Overall, I've been nice (124 points). For Christmas I deserve a pony!
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* I know i said I wasnt goin to update anymore- . Im Not - im just goin to use this for quotes *that I think are absolutley gorgeous* and feel free to take however many you want =) Just comment_ .. Or somethinG* ;)
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When you love and trust someone...
Try not to let it fall...
...Cause once you loose that trust
You basically loose it all
l.o.v.e. is--giving him the ability to break your heart but **trusting** him enough to know that he won't*
*tryin to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew *
****A girl asked a boy if she was pretty, he said "No". She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever, he said No". Then she asked him if he would cry if she walked away, he said "No". She had heard enough; she needed to leave. As she walked away he grabbed her arm and told her to stay. He said "you are not pretty, you are beautiful. I don`t want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. And I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die."****
I wrote your name in the sand but the waves washed it away, I wrote your name on my hand but I washed it off the next day, I wrote your name on a paper but I accidentally threw it away, I wrote your name in my heart and forever it will stay.
♥Im not jealous.. i just hate that she took the only thing that meant something to me away.♥
In three words I can sum up everything I've learned
about life: it goes on. * =)
"In your life you will find one person, your forever love, your forever ...friend. This person is your soul mate, your one true love, and your best friend. The love between you will go beyond words, and be spoken deep within the eyes. This feeling, this connection, will never be broken. They will truly show you that forever means, forever."
Don`t be reckless with other people`s hearts, and don`t put up with people being reckless with yours.
To grow and get stronger you have to be able to forgive the past and trust the future.
Life is too short.. so kiss slowly, laugh insanely, love truely, and forgive quickly.
True love does not come from finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
How can you mean nothing to someone who
means everything to you?
It's hard to wait for something that you know won't ever happen,
but it's even harder to stop when you know it's everything
you've always wanted.
Last night I wanted to write you a letter but all
I wrote was n ss!W ! It didn't make sense
until I turned it upside down.
If you were me,
you'd see how much i really do c r y
you'd find hidden secrets ; bestfriends ; and lies
but what you'd see the most is how
hard it is to stay [[strong]]
when nothings r i g h t
and everythings w r o n g
"True love is when you shed a tear, and still want him.. Its when he ignores you and you still love him .. Its when he loves Another girl .. but you still smile and saY IM happy for you when all you really do is cry,,
Never regret anything you've ever done* - Because at one point - it was EXacltY* what you wanted .. -
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#2 - I just dont like updating anymore
#3 - IT starts to much drama with the whole stupid Credit shit - and Its not worth it to me
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IM not deleting it . .IM just not updating anymore- I will leave comments.. but as for this journal.. this is its funeral- ..
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* IM only going to update about the Important highTLigHTS*
* OnE saTurdAY NIgHT - * lol.. * Kirsten and I WeRE sOOOO bored.. so We decided to fix my hair.. so I stuck it straight up on each side and Kirsten Hairsprayed it! - .. omgah! It was hilarious! - .. So THen We got on the internet.. and started talking to Logan* and JOsh .. so we asked them what they where doing . - KEEPING in mind its like 1 in the morning - so they said nothing .. But JOsh couldnt do anything because Eric was passed out in his bed! - . . so Lisa me and Kirsten went and picked Logan up! .. WITH OUR HAIR LOOKIN like it did! >. It was so funny.. Kirsten looked like she stuck her hand in a light socket!- so then we went to Josh's.. and Poor little Eric was Out of it!> . so Josh decided to leave him there "Dear Eric, Gone .. be back later.. I have taken care of your drucken ass!.. Love Josh!"!!!!!! Lmao. so Josh and lOgan followed us to my house.. and we went inside and talked and stuff ;) - so they stayed until about 3 or 3:30- and then LefT!* That was the best night ever! >. we had so much fun!- So then the next day . - We had to go to wal-mart to get some crap for our hair! .. Because it was bad- .. so we went up there.. and go some things.. then we came back to her house.. and not much went on! -..
*11/3* Thursday - ... weLL ScHOOL BLAH - .. so then I met Kirsten at Subway.. and we were sittin there .. and Michael and Tanner pulled in . .so we were sitting there - ON TANNERS damn side..and REnee and Whitney and al lthem come pulling in .. so - we decided to leave.. because I didnt want to listen to the childish bull shit - so we went to the store for my papaw "" Just go beat your meat!"" .. lmao. so then we went to the DOllar Store. and there they all sat.. Josh WIlson Charlie and Renee and all of them .. so we went into the store.. and JOsh and Charlie came in there because Renee wanted them to see if anything was goin on between us and MichaeL -.. !?? - IT was so stupid and childish .. so I Didnt even worry about it .. - Because thats all that girl is .. is talk.. - and it so stupid - .. So There for. I could care less ** * so we WeNT
*11/4* Friday - .. SchOOL . . then Kirsten came up .. and we got ready for the NOrton/Gate city game. .so we met bub up there.. and so we sat there for awhile.. and then went and got something to eat * WE SAW KIRSTENS husBaND!* lol.. - and MIne.. and then we saw this 3 foot woman! it was so cute.. - so we came back and someone had taken our seats.. - so we ended up standing.. - WElL the gAMe was SO SO SO sucky. .Burton lOst- .. so ME Kirsten and LIndsey went to Pizza Plus.. The pizza Sucked.- " The Snot RaG!" // lmao . - "YES!!!" .. lmao .. - JORDAN!!!! - lmao .. that was so much fuN - so we came back and I cant really remember what we done* -
*11/5* Me and Kirsten decided to go up sis's . .and watch Jaymen - . .lmao .. "shes SMOKIN!">. lmao .. STICK EM IN YOUR NOSE! >. lmao . .so we ended up goin to bed around 12-
*11/6* We came back up to moms... and I took a shower and got ready .. and we took Kirsten home .. and then went to Johnson City.. I bought some clothes.. so we brought Jaymen home .. and I got to drive from there* whOo whOo* - .. so we got home and I Went to BeD*
*11/7* went to SchOOl- . then Kirstens mom picked us up - and we went to Wal-mart! BORING!> she HAD US PAGED! lmao . - .. so then we went back to her dads.. and hung out for awhile.. "BARBIE!" >. lmao .. so then we had her dad take us home .. and we ate Mamwhiches..Then we had papaw to come get us .. and we went out into town and sat with COoter.. and Matt Rose and Packard. .then about an hour later.. we left* -.. and then went to my dads..- so we got there.. and had a discussion about something WE REALLY didnt want to have.. and then I cant remember what we done
*11/8* We had to get up at like freakin 6! ... to go to Johnson City . so we got ready and headed off! Lol..- so We got to ETSU- Got LOST>. and then finally sat around on the computer!>. so then we left there and went to the mall - where we spent half the time in Spencers- .. Lmao.. - so then we left from there "LISA MAD WOMEN WITH THE VAN!!" lmao .. - so we got to the aBingdon college.. and sat around on the internet.. so after that we went and got some Itallian Ice CreaM! YuMM* - so then we headed back home .. so wen we got there.. we decided to go to wal-mart- so Cooter called .. and we rode out into town .. and asked them if him and Packard wanted to go.. so they did .. - and we had a blast.. - The Apple! lmao . - THE SAUSAGE and THE WEINER!_ lmao .. "j - and this is E." lmao .. so we left and ON the way back I threw my apple out the window.. and PAckard and Cooter passed us and they threw his apple and nailed us right in the side of the van! it was hilarious .. so after that .. Kirsten went home and I washed clothes and went to bed_ *
**** And that is about it*! -
* COmMEnts!* =)
Love you Guys*!
j_lee!
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you saw it in my eyes
When you were sayin' goodbye
,I aint gonna be alright
'Cause you could tell
i'd be goin' thru a livin' hell
And you, you wouldnt be there by my side
Lord, you should've felt so bad
As you sat and watched me cry
Thinkin' you was movin' on
And I was barely gettin' by.
Look at what you've done to me
Look at how you've made me feel
you gave back my heart
The broken parts
I got the raw end of the deal
And look at whats it's done to you
God I hope it tears you up
I gave it everything I had
And Lord, it wasn't enough
Hurtin' me like this should feel so wrong
Look at what you've done to me
Now im alone.
You saw me out last night
I was havin' a good time
It looks like Im doin' fine
But then you saw a man
Walk up and take me by the hand
And you, oh God, you almost died
And then it hit you
I didn't really need you
you just sat there for a while
Until you finally smiled.
Yeah, look at what you've done to me
Look at how you made me feel
I've found somebody new
And look who took the time to heal
And look at what it's done to you
God I hope it tears you up
To walk away from the love we made
And just leave it in a cloud of dust
And now it's got you thinkin'
Maybe YOU was wrong
After all the things you've done to me
Now I'm strong.
You walked up and said, ''Hello.''
I said, ''It's good to see ya,
But hey, I gotta go.''
Yeah, look at what you've done to me
Look at how you've made me feel
Im standin' tall
I got it all
Got the world at my heels
And look at what it's done to you
Yea look at how it makes you hurt
I bet If you could go back now you'd swear somehow
you'd find a way to make it work
Ain't life funny
Now YOUR the one alone
Yea look at what you've done to yourself
*IM gone.*
- Look at what you've done to me - =(
- I hope you read this .. I hope it makes you feel just as bad as it made me feel the day you broke my heart! .. Because then you will see - how much I loved and cared for you .. and you will see that you threw that away .. and I want you to see .. I want you to hurt .. just the way I did .. I want to make you feel how you made me feel.. Like nothing .. stupid.. dumb.. ugly.. - - You are nothing .. - This is one of my many mistakes.. that has made me stronger!..
* Complete and [[total]] adoration - My Gift to you, MY [[heart]] was yours! In 10 weeks you shaped it, in [[1]] night you murdered it~.. Torn from my chest and laid at your feet.. - That first step that you took was the worst.. Since then you've walked a [[thousand]] miles.. IN solance and *short remark... and I still have these [[memories]].. But we'll never see what we could have been.. **Remember when we talked about where we would be a year from now? - Remember when you held my hand - like you would never let go? - [[Remember]] .. because that is all you can do .. - ***wE'll NEver Make aNother MeMorY*
-GuyS> - this is really hard! .. I need ya'll!!- .. =) and I love you GUys!
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* well Figured iT was Time For another updaTE- ..
- I want to get atleast 30 comments on this update* - so PLEASE>. give me some comments* IM goin make it like the longest damn update ever so I can get some comments* - But .. ONLY leave 3 at the most per persoN! - that will make it gooD* - ..
- Anyway .. well here I go * -
NothING MaJOr has went On_ .. Me and Kirsten got into an argument.. But we got over It .. IT was SO stupid .. - so we are okay now* I love her to deatH*
IM in the mood for one of them dedication Updates!!- . .Telling my friends how much they REALLY MEAN to me!*
- Amber Nicole Shouse- * gah! Words canNOt describe what you mean to me!- .. YOu are the greatest friend ever!!!_ . and I couldnt imadgine life without you!! ( I would crawl up in a hole and die!!) We have had so many memorieS! and I KNOW many more to come! **Toilet Tiki Girl, Booger and SHooger, Kermit the frog!, all them guys problems!!, Kingsport!(softball), Football games, sleepovers, I BIT HIS LIP!!!!!, our "devotion song!!", My brothers basketball games!! ;)*D&D*, pizza hut, all our crazy dress up days in middle schoOL!!, and SO MUCH MORE!! - its late I cant think that welL!! lol.. Thank you for everything you have ever done for me .. I thank you for every second you helped me thru when I was upset.. I thank you for all your advice that you have given me .. and I thank you for making me a better person!.. Im SO lucky to have a friend like yoU!- and I thank goD that he has blessed me!.. I LOVE YOU BOOGER*
- Kirsten Elaine Hensley- * .. Same - WORDS cannot describe what you have been to me! .. WE havent been friends that long . but in the time that we have became best friends. and We have made so many memories!! My cell phone!, Prank phone calls, THE TENT!!!!!!- we got the liDS!!, walkin down the road!, sittin on your grandmas porch!, Huedeni and Baggita!!, Kingsport with Lisa!, gettin butter at 12:30!!, Kingsport with dad- NO SCHOOL FOR US bitches!!, Mr. Jesses roOM!, The CRACK- EWW!!, "it looks like an elephant trunk!!", the TV shoW!!. I feel so blessed because you are SUCH a great friend.. and You are awesome to be around.. and I thank you so mucH For hELping Me thru all those harD times.. and I would Be MORE than glad to do anything for you if you need anything!. I will be there!- your the greatest* I LOVE YOU NUNNER*
- Christian Nathaniel Meade- * AEWW. Bub!!! I love ya so mucH!. . WE have So many adventures when we are around each other!! - and we always have a blast! YOur so awesome! and thank you for everything you have done for me! . .and being a great friend!. - WE have SO many memories! Driving! defintly!, Bruce straight!. O GAH WHERE GONNA DIE!, High Nob!!!, ogah! where stuck!!, the old man!!, Christian - I hit 60 comin off that mountaiN!!!, My house, takin moms car for a drive!!, caney ridge, ST.paul, Lets go get some food!, Food city, KFC, huddle house, Christian we dont have any moneY!, EWW shes pickin her nose* and so many more to come* I LOVE YOU BUB*
- Olivia Shae Stallard- * .. You are stupid!.. nah! Im kiddiN!. .your the greatest! I love ya to deatH! .. - wE have some memorYS* - Softball.. we are goin to be Over them!, were on VarsitY!! lmao!, camp!, Nemo and her crazy ideas!, You criP!, our stupid fights! and so much mORe* thanks for always bein there for me when I needed ya!* - I LOVE YA SHAE*
* BrEaNN ? FLEENOR- * > I DoNT Know your middle name damit! ! - But your great!- who knew that we would be friends!?! - Im so gLad tho!.. because WE dont NeeD "dustin cOOKE!" .. lmao!. hes a loser* and we can And aRE doing mUCH better* - I hope everything Goes Great with coOTER* - .. ;) I LOVE YOU BRI*
* LISA ANN BOYD- * I LOVE YOU TO DEATH!.. you are BY FAR the greatest girlfriend my dad has EVER HAD.. and hopefully the last!>. you are my best friend! and That is so great that I can say that because I've never got to say that about any of his other girlfriends! and IM SO glad that you guys found each other.. and that my dad found someone that treats him like you do!>. - THANK YOU for everything you have done for me!.. and Being there for me when ever I needed you!!.. I can tell you anything!.. and I LOVE YOU!!!!& =)
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- Guy Wise.. something is goin on I geuss you can saY* - .. and it has NOTHING to do with Logan!.. he is so confusin .. so Im not worrying about him anymore!.. I dont have time to play his stupid games! - But Im not writing on here what is goin on* - the people that know.. KNOW1.. so I dont need to say it on here* - .. BUt its goOD* so far.. I just have to take it further* ;) so hopefully things will work out for the best* - ..
well * I know I said I Was goin to make this SUPER lONg .. But I dont think I can do that! Lol .. - so this is the best I can do* *
THis is the greatest song ever*
****I'm gonna do it darlin':
I could waste time tryin' the figure it out,
But i'm jumpin' in anyhow.
I've never been this far;
Didn't know love could run so deep:
didn't know i'd lose this much sleep.
chorus
Holdin' you close, chasin' that moon.
spinnin' all night,
lovin' just who you are:
sparks flyin' in the dark.
shootin' out lights, huntin' down dreams,
figurin' out what love really means:
baby givin' you my heart,
is a real fine place to start.
somethin' is goin' on
i can't explain but sure can touch:
it's callin' both of us.
stronger than any fear or doubt,
it's changin' everything i see:
it's changin' you, it's changin' me.
chorus
holdin' you close, chasin' that moon.
spinnin' all night,
lovin' just who you are:
sparks flyin' in the dark.
shootin' down lights, runnin' down dreams,
figurin' out what love really means:
baby, givin' you my heart,
is a real fine place to start.
right here, right now's the perfect spot, the perfect time.
the perfect moment when your skin is next to mine.
yeah, yeah:
holdin' you close, (holdin' you close)
chasin' that moon. (chasin' that moon)
spinnin' all night,
lovin' just who you are:
sparks flyin' in the dark.
shootin' out lights, (shootin' down lights.)
runnin' down dreams, (runnin' down dreams.)
figurin' out just what love really means:
baby, givin' you my heart's a real fine place,
real fine place to start.*******
* BUt PLEASE* 30 comments!* thats all I want!!!! -
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* I figured I would update.. to tell you guys that I got my braces off! ~~ .. It is so SO SO weird! .. everyone says I look pretty .. but I feel like my teeth are humoungous! ... ogah! >. its horrible! .. = But they are kinda growing on me * - ..
- Things arent goin to well right now =( .. so this isnt goin to be a long and happy update - .. i was just in the mood to right about my braces.. -
- No one EVER comments on this thing .. - thats why it is totally pointless to updatE* -
- * LOveS _
j_lEE*
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[Tuesday
October 18th, 2005 at 10:37pm] |
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* Hey* - well Im VeRY bored so I figured I would write on this thing* =)
* Well I go Thursday to Get My braces off! - shew! .. I Dont know what Im goin to look like! its scarY! .. - I've had them on for 3 1/2 years! -so ..Seperation Anxiety! lol.. j/k - but it will be very Weird! .. - This has been an exciting week so faR ! - Even Tho it is only TuesdaY * I got my learners MOndaY* =)) so that was very very very exciting* . .and - Tomorrow .. Kirsten , Me , Logan , and her friend Wes.. are goin to the movies! ;) so that is Exciting* - I havent been anywhere with Logan in awhile- so .. hes always fuN - .. But THen THursday Im goin to get them off* - thank goD! .. so I think maybe Kirsten is going with me .. Not for sure yeT* - hopefully! I get to drive over there! =) so that is goin to be so freakin scarY! ... Because ogah .. I cant even go thru Norton without being so nervouse you could break me!> . but I think I can handle IT! - ..
- Mom got our "rental" today .. IT was a 2006 Jeep Liberty .. Its burgandy .. - I like it .. she let me drive it to crossroads.. and I love the way it drives.. so She is goin Friday and seein about Trading the car in for that!- and I REALLY REALLY hope she does because I hate the stupid car.. and The Jeep is only 22,000- so that is not bad. . - for a 2006! - so hopefully all that will work out* -
_ last weekEnd* - . was awesomE! - . Me and Kirsten got the bright idea that we were goin to camP out - ..sO she stayed Friday . .and we stayed in the house. .and dONe NothING* - .. so then Saturday .. we went to FOOD CITY! (woo woo) lmao. .and got some *items* then went out in town and talked to Cooter and Elliot. and I got all that cleared up with Elliot . . so .. where not "talking" anymore . but I geuss we are cooL now* - . so Then we left.. and went and fixed food.. and then set up the tent and got everything in it . and watched Without a paddle on the labtop .. and - drank all of our "items" .. that was hilarious! - .. * DID YOU GUYS TAKE PICTURES!??!?* . .ogah! .. - WE got the lids BitcH!!! =) lol.. so we woke up around 7:30- because it was so damn colD! - .. I mean COLD COLD! .. so we went back in the house.. and fell asleep .. and woke up around 1 - or I woke up at 1 Kirsten and Lisa were up around 9 * .. but I didnt feel goOD!> - so we got ready and went to Norton "THUGS!" ... we looked like skanks! .. but we ate at McDonalds. .and walked around for ahile!_ (Kirsten .. I knew that would happen to you!!!!) lol.. so then we left.. and went back to my house.. and waited on mom .. so then she came got us .. took kirsten home .. and I went home .and went to beD* -
- Ah Lordy .. - Im in the mood to update.. I just dont have anything to update about! =/
-My LIfes goin pUrTY darn goOd - .. ITs not the BEST .. but its goin good. - ..
Friends. - Great . . -
BOoger =) LOve you!!>. you are the besT -
NunNer =) LOVe you!!! > you are the best!
Shae =) Love you!!!> you suck! - no Im kiddin your the best
Day =) I dont love yoU! you hoe! .. Im kiddin LOVE YOU .. the best!
BuB =) .. Love you ! - you are the best!
MoN =) LOve YOU! !
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. Logan - WelL onto this subject once moRE* - ..I dont really know what is goin on between Logan and i .. but I do know that I've had awhile to think about things.. and I KNow* - that I want to be with hiM! .. - and thats a great feeling because I've never BEEN sure about being with him .. BUt I am now_ .. so its all good .. - Hopefully .. - Because hes So wonderfuL!- .. =) <3
- THe whoLe deaL with Victoria and Dustin - weLL .. the SHits StUpID- .. and I dont want anything to dO with IT - .. It doesnt bother me that they are "getting married". . It actually is kinda funnY* - but its not my life - I dont have to deal with it .. - Im just glad I got out of that hell when I did!_
Elliot_ well Me and Mr. sullivan are okAY I geuss.. I havent talked to him in awhile.. but I apologized.. and I think so did he !? so were good. - and if we aint .. then ?? - there is nothing I can do about it ! - . .What sucks is that I really cared for the boi and shit like "THAT!!!!!!!" .. has to happen .. and I have to find it out right as IM developing deep feelings for hiM! .. BUT- >> that is alright .. because Im over that now! =)
well* I think this is a damn gooD updatE =)
So leave me some COmmEnts*! - \
Love yoU guyS* =) )
J-leE*
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[Monday
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NAME= Jordan Leigh Fields
: piercing(s) = My ears*
: tattoos = NoPE
: height= 5'1
: shoe size = 8 1/2
: hair color = Blonde
: siblings = One Brother
LAST...
: movie you rented = Blue Collar ComedY tOUR
: movie you bought = The Longest Yard
: song you listened to = You FouND me -
: song that was stuck in your head = Beverly Hills.. Because of 1rst bloCK
: cd you bought = ?? hmm -
: cd you listened to = Breaking BEnjiman
: person you've called = Kirsten
: person that's called you = Kirsten
: tv show you've watched = The rEal World
: person you were thinking of = LogaN* -
DO....
: you have a crush on someone = yeP* - . I do
: you wish you could live somewhere else = YEs.. NOt on this mountain
: you think about suicide = NoPE*
: you believe in online dating = Nah
: others find you attractive = I geuss
: you want more piercings = NopE
: you like cleaning = When IM in THe mOOd FOr IT*
: you like roller coasters = YeP*
: you write in cursive or print = Kinda BoTH
FOR OR AGAINST...
: long distance relationships = * IM Totally FoR that*
: using someone = AGAINSt
: suicide = Against
: killing people = Against
: teenage smoking = Against
: driving drunk = Against
: gay/lesbian relationships = - Im not doing it .. so I dont care.. -
: soap operas = Love eM*
HAVE YOU...
: ever cried over a girl = Yeah .. MY Friends*
: ever cried over a boy = To many Times
: ever lied to someone = Yeah
: ever been in a fist fight = no_
: ever been arrested = Nah
: ever gotten pulled over by the police = NoPE
WHAT...
: shampoo do you use = Blonde Expressions*
: shoes do you wear = Mainly Flip Flops.. - Or CrOcks
: are you scared of = The DaRK - . .and Snakes. .and Spiders..
NUMBER...
: of times I have been in love? = 3
: of times I have had my heart broken? = 3 times
: of hearts I have broken? = I geuss 3
: of girls I have kissed? = NoNE*
: of boys I have kissed? = A number*
: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = 4
: of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? = maybe 6
: of scars on my body? = 5
: of things in my past that I regret? = Mainly 3
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...
: pretty – I geuss so*
: funny – YeP
: hot – I dont kNO*
: friendly – Yes
: amusing – YeaH
: ugly - No .. NOt really
: loveable – Yes
: caring – Yes
: sweet – Yes
: dorky – yea
FAVORITE ...
: 5 letter word: Elvis
: Candy: Sour WOrms!
: Cereal: Cinamon Toast CRunch
: Chewing gum: Orbit
: Color(s): Orange. - YEllow. .and BlUE
: Day of week: FridaY* and SaturdaY
: Least fave day: Monday - and Teusday!
: Flower: Daisy
: Jello flavor: Watermelon?!
: Special skills/talents: >> softbalL - and BEing myself!
: Summer/Winter: Winter*
: Trampolines or swimming pools: Swimming Pools
PERSON WHO LAST...
: Slept in your bed: My self*
: Saw you cry: Kirsten . Monica. my mom and My dad*
: Made you cry: Elliot -
: You went to the movies with: Dustin! UGH (i think)
: Yelled at you: EllIot- and My Mom
: Sent you an email: Brittany Marie StoUt!
HAVE YOU EVER...
: Said "I love you" and meant it?: YEs I sure haVE*
: Gone out in public in your pajamas: YeP*
: Kept a secret from everyone: YEp
: Cried during a movie: DuH! yeah
: Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: No
: Planned your week based on the TV Guide: No
: Been on stage: Yes
: Been to New York: no
: Been to California: No
: Hawaii: Nah
: China: No
: Canada: No
: Europe: No
: Asia: No
: South America: no
: Australia: No
: Wished you were the opposite sex: No
: What time is it now?: 7:52 PM
: Apples or bananas?: Bananas
: Blue or red?: Red
: Walmart or target?: Walmart
: Spring or Fall?: Fall
: What are you gonna do after you finish this?: Probably watch my moVie *
: High school or college?: College
: Are you bored?: yeah
: Last noise you heard?: The Tv.
: Last smell you sniffed?: My candle*
: Last time you went out of state/province?: Last SuMMer
FRIENDSHIP/LOVE...
: Do you believe in love at first sight?: I dont really knO*
: Do you want children one day & if so, how many?: At Least 2* a boi and GIrl*
OTHER INFO...
: Criminal record?: no
: Do you speak any other languages?: NoPe
: Last book you read: Some Britney Spears BooK
: things in your bedroom?: My COmputer. My NIte stand.. my bed.. my clothes.. my stero.. my tv.. all that good junk*
: Things you dislike about yourself the most: My Weight
: Worst feeling in the world: When the phone rings and its not for you!!!!! lol.. j/k- When you love someone SO much .. But they dont feel the same!
: Who you love: I love My Friends* -
: Who you miss: LogAN- .
YOU...
: Nickname(s): j-lEE // SHoOGer
: Initials: JLF
: How old do you look? some say 20 some say 10?? I Dont know
: How old do you act?: I think IM mature acting for my aGE*
: Glasses/Contacts: Neither
: Braces: yeP*
: Do you have any pets?: Yep Gizmo My Yorkie. .and DOobie My cAT
: You get embarrassed: Yeah .. But NOt alot!
: What makes you happy?: hMM* - .. My Friends.. and KNowin IM healthY!
: What upsets you?: When people let people walk all over them. . or when someone is talkin about me .. or when I get my heart broken!
FINISH THE SENTENCE...
: I Miss...Logan Todd JacksoN*
: I Wish... ^ that would go away!- and he would be hERE*
: I Hope... I can get over * some PeopLE that I Need to Get oVEr*
: I'm Annoyed by...whores and Liars
: I Am... nOt in a good moOD* - and I Want some ice cream
: I Would Never...sleep with someone to prove a point or to fit in*
: I Am Tired of...having my heart broken and noting ever going right for me!
* well I just felt like doing that* so there it is* -
LOve you GUYs*
j_leE*
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[Tuesday
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Life as of RigHT now . Pretty MuCH sUCKs - =(
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NOthin can go right in Jordans lIFe _.. well >> It gets good .. and then === BOOM - .. IT blows up and goes all to helL - ..
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Well .. THis has been a VERY bad week for me. . _first.. Elliot and I .. got into this HUGE argument .. - over a stupid phone call. - so now we are not talkin to each other - over stupid childish bull shit .. - .. so I dont care.. - I mean .. I care because He said he has lost all respect in me .. - but then again when I think about WHY he lost that respect.. its totally stupid. . - so then .. Something happend with one of my very good friends.. that scared the living hell out of me. - and I didnt get any rest.. and ,, shew Im already sick.. and it just made it worse.. and TAKE To Mind.. THis all happend in the same damn night .. - so .. - tHEN . I had to go to the hostpital tonight .. well Last night (11th) .. and I had to stay up there until about 1:30 - ... IT was aweful.. so I cant go to school for 2 days.. and I cant do anything Physical until this shit goes away.. - IM just goin to like go to THe beach or something and hide out .. and let all this crap dye down! .. lol I WISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - .. =) I would love that. .- .. but ,,
Amber NIKOLE Spranged (sp?) her ankle! .. = IM sorRY booger! .. - ... =) I Love ya! ..
KIrsten Elaine IS having a mental Break down!- along with me .. we've done decided where '' well SHE is moving to the alps and moving in with 2 bears that are so lazy all they can do is sit there and keep her warM! - .. .. but she wont let me move in next door .. so IM goin to move to the rockies and live with the Mountain lions or what ever! .. - WE can be pin pals and right each other!! - lol.. =) This is sad when you think of stupid shit like that! lol.. - lordy lordY! .. But .. well .. ALl the Good things have offically came to a stop . .and Blew up .. - and now they are just NOT GOOD anymore. = UGH! .. I knew I'd be writing something like this before the damn year was over with .. and what do you know .. I AM! _..it just sucks it happend this soon .. =( .. BUt ahh I geuss this LIFE will go oN_ .. -
.. Im OUt * PEACE =)
j_leE
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